Oz Like Joints as stiff and creaky as the Tin Man… When, oh when will they find a lubricant that works for them… Brain as foggy as the Scarecrow… Can’t concentrate, can’t comprehend, can’t remember, will this fog lift someday, somehow… Fear as deep as the Cowardly...
Patient Voice
Oh How I Miss Reading
Oh How I Miss Reading Oh how I miss reading, The ability to get lost in a book, To be swept away by the story, To hear the characters in my head! I’ve been robbed of the ability to concentrate, Absorb meaning, Follow the story. Eyes so tired, Eyes...
I Wish I Could Say, “Yes”
I wish I could say, “yes,” … that I can go with you to the concert. … that I can figure out the grocery list, go to the store, and unpack when I get home. … that I can walk with you around our neighborhood. … that I will vacuum the house and do the laundry and cook...
Watching the World
Watching the World I open the door from my room I watch the world People in school for degrees People on sunny sandy beaches People winning awards People on trips with friends I love watching everything I dream of joining in I wonder about being part I close...
Hope
HOPE I hope you never wake up one day and realize your illness will never get better I hope you are never told you’re being denied care in the form of a letter I hope that you never feel anxiety to see doctors out of fear I hope that you never have to...
ME/CFS Had Other Plans
I was proud to be a civil servant who worked on the remediation of hazardous waste sites for the US EPA. I was 20 years in and figured I had 20 more to go. But at 42 years of age, ME had other plans. After a day of cross country skiing, ignoring what I now know were...
Reflections of Fibromyalgia
Reflections on Fibromyalgia This is the owl I got at the children's hospital gift shop when I received my Fibromyalgia diagnosis at age eleven, almost two decades ago. I am now thirty years old and finishing a degree in Disability Studies, and my life with chronic...
The Monster
The Monster If I had to describe my chronic illness as a creature, it would be a grotesque, twitchy hare with a hyena head and spider legs. It's the stuff of nightmares. Can you imagine it? A blind, lifeless eye staring back at me while venomous drool drips from...
The Germiest Place on Earth
The fatigue began at the top of my head and rolled down my body, as if I’d been standing under a cold shower. I felt flushed, chilled, achy, and unsteady on my feet. I had to lean against the display case of the cupcake shop, hoping my son wouldn’t notice. We were on...
Community Helps Me Live Better with Fibromyalgia
I felt like a normal mom. I had three girls, so I was busy, but I still liked to hike, bike, run and go for walks. I had finished my bachelor’s degree and considered getting a master’s when my youngest started school. I kept up my teaching certificate in the meantime....
From My Dream Medical Job to Life with ME/CFS
Before I got ME/CFS I was a women's health nurse practitioner working in a busy practice. I had spent years of education preparing for this dream job: two bachelor's degrees in biology and nursing and two master's degrees in philosophy of science and nursing. I loved...
Josie’s Story
I was only 11 years old when I got ME/CFS and my life changed forever. Before ME, I was a normal, happy kid. I loved going to school and got straight A’s. I was that crazy kid who couldn’t wait for school to restart after a break. I also loved music. I played the...