I wish I could say, “yes,”
… that I can go with you to the concert.
… that I can figure out the grocery list, go to the store, and unpack when I get home.
… that I can walk with you around our neighborhood.
… that I will vacuum the house and do the laundry and cook our supper.
… that I can sign up for, and complete, a weekly Beginning Yoga class.
… that I can go out to dinner or a movie without having to sit-out the next couple of days on the couch.
… that I can plan a birthday celebration for my husband that is equal to those I did the first half of our marriage.
… that I can shower AND wash my hair and still be able to do something else that day.
… when a potential employer asks if I’m up for the requirements of a challenging position.
… to my aging mother, when she asks me if there is a cure.
… when I ask myself whether my current quality of life is acceptable enough for me to want to continue it.
… when I am asked by others, or myself, if I have hope that my life with ME/CFS will improve?
I wish I could say, “yes.”
Allyson lives in Park City, Utah
This poem was submitted as part of the Reflections of ME/CFS, FM, and Long COVID Awareness Day Virtual Event on May 9th, 2023.
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